Cynic & Cranky

Today I heard a very new and fascinating belief, at least as far as I am concerned, about Paradise (Jannah) and hell (Dozakh). When in morning I went downstairs in my office to made a complaint about my home landline phone, two technicians were sitting. I heard while trying to make complaint (since PTCL central customer care office walas don’t pick phone that easily), one was addressing other one about what hell and paradise really are. I wanted to share it in urdu جنّت اور دوزخ دو چٹیل میدان ہیں. ہم خود وہاں رہنے کے لئے اپنا سامان اکھٹا کرتے ہیں. مثال کے طور پر جب ہم سبحان الله کہتے ہیں تو وہاں اک درخت لگتا ہے اور جب ہم دوبارہ سبحان الله کہتے ہیں تو وہاں دوسرا درخت لگ جاتا ہے ور اس طرح وہاں باغ بنتا جاتا ہے، جب کے اس کے برعکس جب ہم کسی کو گالی دیتے ہیں تو وہاں اپنے لئے اک چولہے میں آگ بھڑکاتے ہیں اور جب ہم ایسا کرتے رہتے ہیں تو پوری دوزخ ہمارے لئے تیار ہو جاتی ہے Paradise and hell are two big grounds in the world hereafter. We ourselves collect the things to pass our lives there...

1)Amazingly sometimes even webmaster of some public websites do reply of your inquiries. 2)Always check your all inbox regularly (at least once a week) since sometimes your problem have been solved/ your supplication have been answered while you still mourning and bewildering.

So, Ramdan will either end today or tomorrow. This ramdan was by far the best ramdan I spent as practicing Islam (I think so, rest may Allah accpet my prayers and answer my supplications). Though there were some sins I commit too (*embarrased and ashamed*) during even fasting but still this ramdan ranked top among all ramdan. The best thing that I did this ramdan was that I tried really hard to offer five time prayers on time and alhamdulillah I can count that there were only three prayers that I missed (two Asars and one Isha). Like most of us, the reason was sleeping at the time of namaz =$. Secondly, I went for taraweeh though not much regular but surely the count of my attendance is more than my absence. Thirdly I started reading tafseer. Though this thought of reading Quran with tafseer was quite late (in last ten days of ramdan yet they say its never too late than never or in persian دیر آید درست آید ). This thought pass by my mind when while reading even with urdu translation...

Never Ever and I repeat myself (emphasizing more) NEVER EVER open every link you come across while browsing from office. Plus if your sitting arrangement is such that your monitor can be viewed through glass door by anybody moving across corridor, just don't even think of browsing no matter you are getting bored to death or you'd fall asleep if wouldn't browse (believe me caught having a nap is not that embarrassing). P.S: I was thinking to post this just day before yesterday, but today arrrrrggghh I stumble upon some more worse site and it was hell more embarrassing than that.

In quest of contentment, I am blowing hot and cold, moving back and forth of two extremes. To summarize what I am upto these days. At times, I listen Moulana Tariq Jameel thought provoking and breath taking lectures with such reverence that sometimes I cry all my eyes out and read astaghfar repenting all my wrongdoings. Some other time, I watch movie and search on net about movie reviews :-S.