Cynic & Cranky

Theology S used to quote her father that listening to music could strangle your heart to death (not sure if it is hadith or just a saying). After listening this many times I started hard to quit listening music, though I was achi khasi music follower. Anyway she used to quote this thing that all sins start when your heart is dead enough to commit sin. Observation I have hired a van for pick and drop, so as every blessing comes with a price, it also does and price for this one is that I reached office when there is no one at office other than peon and sweeper @ 9:00 am sharp. There is a guy who come couple of minutes after me. This guy when I asked him why he came so early when no one is there? Replied that it is because of his habit for praying fajar, and after that due to daylight saving thing (which God knows benefitting whom, I still need to find some KESC wala who can satisfy me with figures if we are saving any electricity) there is very less time left for sleeping back. AS...

I dont know when this mania induced in me. May be, since when I started observing failures and success in my as well as other ppl's life closely. I am sick of my this psychotic behavior. When I come across someone's happiness or success; I start evaluating his/her deeds and virtues in daily life. That leads me to think that its just because these deeds that Allah is showering His blessing on him/her. On the contrary, when somebody is in some trouble I feel opposite of it like started evaluating his misconducts :S. I audit everyones wrongs ans rights and pronounce my verdict "Gotcha!! this is the very reason!! you are in this SHIT" (is it strange???) Albeit, I have been trying lately not to find reasons but somethings are just in luck, written in ones fate. No matter how bad or good you are. And as they say "Khuda day k bhi azmata hay or lay k bhi" (Allah put us in trial sometimes by giving us and sometimes taking away something from us) and this whole life i...